Only one week to my birthday! I'm not to excited. Just means that I will soon have gray hair and weak bones. Ok ok so 29 is not the end of the world. But it feels like it. I am not doing anything special for it. Getting to old to do anything like go out. Old? Who the hell wants to get old? I had a plan at one point in my life I did a actual plan but so far it has fallen short of my expectations. I really wanted to get married again before I was 30 but that is just a far memory. You know what makes me the saddest about that? I had a guy that was the love of my life and I could not handel it. I was not ready or maybe I was just not mature enough to handel it. So I lost him and he has since gotten married and moved on with his life. I have moved on slowly at best. I think that love that strong should be against the law. Anyway, maybe someday I will be lucky enough to find another that will not be just like him but maybe he will be close. Know what I mean? Oh man. Ok can not talk about this anymore.