I am sitting here again in front of my computer Sunday night after finishing work and trying to unwind enough to go to bed. I really love my job at the hut but there are days that I would love to just hurt someone. I have this guy at work that is a really great guy but he is really selfish. I mean as a friend he is great I can talk to him about anything at all and he is totally cool about it. Here is his down fall though... He is in such a hurry to get out of there at night that he does a half ass job of cleaning up. See we have 2 drivers that close the store every night and between those 2 drivers we have 2 major jobs that need to get done before we go home. One of those jobs is sweeping and mopping the floors. The other is doing all the dishes. Now, the way that it used to work (and the way that it still should but does not) was that the 2 drivers would switch off those jobs so that one was not always doing the same job over and over and over again. The thing of it is though is that doing the dishes at night is so a breeze compared to doing the floors that some of the drivers refuse to do anything but. I hate that because the before mentioned co worker of mine does just that. He does nothing but dishes which leaves e with the floors every single Sunday night! He will even go as far as doing a shitty job on the floors and let everyone see so that they will know if he does the floors they are going to look like shit. See all of this is bad enough but there is more. He is also in such a hurry to go out after work that he even does a crappy job on the dishes. Now I usually will clean up after him because I want the store to look good in the morning when the manager comes in. So that means that not only do I do the "grunt" work there at the store but then I have to follow up on the work that he does. You know what pisses me off the most about all of this? I was the one who trained him in on how to do the dishes and do them the right way so I know that he knows how to do it right and he still screws it up! I hate it I hate it I hate it! I think I may have a little talk with my store manager about him to see what she can do because I am at the end of my rope with him.

There is so much drama going on in my life right now that I feel like my head will explode at any given moment. The worst part is that most of the drama is not coming from me directly. Does that make sense? I mean my personal life is ok for the most part but the things going on around me that effect me is just filled with drama. Maybe none of that makes sense but I know what I'm talking about. LOL So I am not really going to get into the drama much other then to say that my older brother and his baby's mama suck and I'm thinking about disowning him. Other then that work has been ok, my kids are good for the most part and I have money. So I can not really complain! LOL The only one thing that I would change is my time off. I only have one day off right now and of course I want to spend it with everyone I know and that is just not possible. I feel so bad sometimes with the decisions that I make cuz I feel like no matter what I do I hurt someone. So I really need another day off! Well I think that is it for now so take care all and I will try and post again sometime later this week. Do not hold me to that though LOL

I think that I may have a touch of insomnia. I have not been able to sleep more then 3 to 4 hours for like the past week now. I mean even when I am home and getting ready for bed I can not seem to fall asleep. I do everything that I normally would do to try and help me sleep and nothing seems to work. It's getting harder and harder as the days go by to function without a huge amount of caffeine and nicotine. Which sucks cuz I had been cutting down on the smoking intending to try and quite again. I think that maybe I just have way to much going on in my life right now and I am not able to shut my mind off at a decent hour. Maybe I should try some herbal tea or something. That was the one thing that my manager suggested when I told her. She herself has a lot of trouble sleeping. Her problem is that she can fall asleep but then wakes up a few hours later. I think that my by more frustrating that not being able to fall asleep. On well what are you going to do right? I mean we sleep enough when we die or so I have heard.

My weekend was so full of ups and downs that I have no idea if it was good or bad. Friday I got a call on my cell phone while I was at work saying that my older brother was in jail and he had his 4 year old daughter into he car with him. Oh boy! So my family and I went out there to get her. That was a lot of fun. NOT! Friday night I went out to a movie with a guy that I am sorta seeing. He wanted to see Final Destination 3 and so I went with him. It was kind of a crappy movie but it was what is was. I told him that he owed me big time! I am going to make that boy to go to a girlie movie with me no matter what. LOL! I got home real late that night and got a couple of hours of sleep. That's ok. Saturday I got together with Jen. I helped her take her cat to the vets, we went to lunch and then to walmart. Then we headed to Ang's house for card night. That was a lot of fun! We played a couple of hands of spades and then we played poker and black jack. We used pretzels to bet but it was still a lot of fun. Was out late that night too. Sunday I kinda veged out all day and forgot everything that I was supposed to do that day. I ended up doing nothing that I was supposed to. I went to work at 6 worked until close. I had a crappy night though at work. We were really slow and I made like no money. Plus I had this carry out customer that made me so mad that I wanted to hit her. Literally I was so mad I was shaking and that usually does not happen when I am at work. She was such a bitch and I do not say that about a lot of the customers. She wanted to pay for her pizza with a credit card. So I asked her for her ID as is our policy and she copped such an attitude with me. She says you do not even have that posted anywhere. I said ma'am it is our policy to ask for ID with all credit card purchases. She said that she did not have her ID it was in her car, which by the way was right outside of the door but she refused to go to the car and get it. So I was going ask the manager on duty that night if we could take it and as I'm trying to talk to him she snatches her card out of my hand and says forget it I'll pay in cash. I tell her that you really can not go anywhere anymore without being asked for an ID with a credit card. Then I said to her wouldn't you feel better if your card was stolen and the company the thief tried to use it asked for an ID. She said well that's My choice isn't it? By this point I am steaming and trying my best to hold my composure. So I hand her the change form the 20 she gave me and try hard not to look right at her. I turned around to grab her 3 personal pan pizzas that she ordered and I asked her if she wanted a bag for that. She said and I quote "well, what do you think? There's three pizzas" OH MY GOD! I almost lost it right there and then. But I held myself in check and waited until she was out the door and vented to all that would listen. LOL! So anyway that was my weekend. Hope yours was better!

Ok so I need to vent for awhile. My bank is seriously pissing me off. I do not understand how they debt before they credit. I used to work at a bank and I know that you are supposed to credit before they debt. In the past month they have overdrawn my account 5 times even when I put money in before the check clears. Why oh why oh why???? If anyone can tell me a bank worth dealing with I would really appreciate it. I'm willing to take all of my money out of this bank and open another one if I can find a good one. At this point I have tried all of the major ones out there and they all suck! The bank that I am at right now was good at first and now it's just gotten crappy. Ok now that that is out of the way. My brother is doing ok. I just talked to him though and he said that he was going to get some counseling for the robbery. I really think that is a good idea for him. I really feel bad for him. I could not imagine getting robbed at gun point. I have been robbed before back when I worked at a gas station but they did not have a weapon that I saw. I hope for his sake that it helps. I think that this is all for today.

Ok well today started out crappy and just got worse and worse as the day went on. My mom woke me this morning crying to tell me that my little brother was robbed at gun point at the convenience store that he worked at. Needless to say that got me up and out of bed. He works the overnight shift at a gas station in Fridley and at 4 am this morning 2 guys came in with rags over their faces. One of the men had a gun and the other had a knife. My brother and the other guy he was working with were made to go into the restrooms and empty out their pockets. They took my brothers keys to the safe and made the other employee open the safe for them and clean it out. My brother could only think of his kids one of which turns 2 on Friday. He ended up telling the robbers this in the middle of it all. Not sure if he was looking for sympathy or just trying to let them know he had reasons to cooperate so not to get hurt. Man how ridiculous. To ruin your life and someone else's because you are to damn ignorant to find a way to survive without robbing someone. I tell you what I have been down and I mean REAL down in life; to a point where I have done some messed up things for money but I would never ever even think of robbing another person, place or thing. I wonder if these people that do things like this even realize the impact they have on the people that they rob? I doubt it very highly or at the very least if they do they do not give a damn. Either way people suck! Well so then at work I ended up having the bunge cord to my 2 wheeler snap back and clip me in the wrest. That hurt so bad it brought tears to my eyes. Then as I was leaving that sane delivery I slipped and fell on the ice and scraped up my hand and knee on the curb. Man oh man cant a girl get a break? I guess not! Then after that I made like next to no money for tips and I had to listen to my friend pin away over this girl he barley even knows! I really would like to know who handles the complaint department for the bad days in our lives. I am going to write to them and demand a new and better day to replace the crap that I had today.

Why is it that we need to come up with a title for every posting that we do? Sometimes its hard enough trying to think about what to write without having to think up a title too! So its 2:10 am and I am as awake as they get. Why? I do not know the answer to that but literally I tried and tried to go to sleep and I just could not. So I thought that I would post some ramblings. I mean I think that it helps put my readers to sleep so why would it not help me to sleep? LOL Man its getting closer and closer to my birthday and all I keep thinking is that old saying; "Its easier to be killed by a terrorist then it is to get married after the age of 30." So I have 1 year and a little over a month to convince the man of my dreams not only that he wants to be involved with me even though I have 3 kids but that he also wants to get married. Yeah like I do not have enough to do during the day. LOL Anyway, My mom said something really funny to me today and I really have to share. We were talking earlier in the evening about me going to bed and she made some comment about her and my dad keeping me up last night. I said no you did not keep me up last night I went to bed pretty early. She said that's not what you said last night. Now by this point I am extremely confused. I do not remember talking to my mom and dad after taking my youngest out of their room to come in to sleep in my room. So I think my exact words were "What are you talking about? I never said that you kept me up. When did you asks me?" Mom said last night. Then she said to me what are you talking in your sleep now? MOM! You have known me for 28 years now and should know very well that I talk in my sleep and that I always have. In fact my dad and my kids (mostly the youngest but the other 2 have the occasion to too) talk in their sleep. I have warned many a boyfriend because I do and I never remember what was said while I was sleeping. You would think though that the mother that raised me would know that. You know? Ok well I think that typing this out has really helped me so I'm off to bed. Catch yall on the flip side.

Today is hump day or Wednesday which ever way you look at it. I wonder who the hell made up the nick name hump day for Wednesday? I mean I know that it makes sense to a point. Wednesday is in the middle of the work week and all but the person that made it hump day must have been really perverted! LOL maybe that's just me! I can take just about anything and make it perverted. So it really started off as a crappy day and just got worse as the day went on. My youngest son who is 3 woke up crying and nothing that I said or did would make him stop. You see he is very stubborn (I blame his father) and once he gets started it takes a lot for him to stop. To top it all off I did not have that much time to calm him down as I had over slept which I hardly ever do. So I left him screaming in the hallway so I could take a shower and my poor mom and dad had to try and calm him down. By the time I got done with my shower he was down to a dull roar and my mom had side tracked him with the important task of starting my car. (YAH MOM) So then I had to run to the gas station because like an idiot I did not want to stop last night thinking that I would have plenty of time to fill in the morning. I only had 10 minutes to get to work so I did not even bother to grab a sandwich or anything to eat. Got to work thankfully on time. Then about 1230 we got really busy. So needless to say I did not get lunch either (Oye vay) Ok so then everything was cool I was counting on my mom to make a roast tonight cuz that's what she said she was going to make and I would just eat then. Well, got home and my mom said by the way we will not be here for dinner tonight so I did not make the roast. OH MAN! Ok well that's fine they need to get out every once and a while too and I totally understand that. So I call up my dear friend Jenny and see if she wants to go to dinner and we set it up. I forgot to mention that when I got home from work my mom told me that my son (same one from above) did not take a nap. Well sometimes its ok that he does not and sometimes its really not ok. Today it was really not ok. I tried to get him ready to go out to dinner with Jenny and he starts throwing a fit again. Man this one was the worst I have experienced in like months. He would not calm down no matter what I did. I tried for over half an hour to get him to calm down so that we could go. To no avail. So then I called Jenny said that dinner was not going to happen tonight and that I was going to stay home and order pizza. You think that my story would end there but oh no it does not. I called up the pizza hut that I work at to order pizza and my manager that was on duty asks if I can come in and work cuz they were so busy! I said that I would love to cuz I love making the money but my rents had left and I had no sitter but I did want to order pizza. Do you know what he said then?? You will never guess. He said that he was to busy to take my order and that I should call back later. Better then that he said that he would call me when I could order! How's that for service?? Ok so by this time its getting late and my kids have not eaten yet and ever time I try to call Pizza Hut back and order I'm put on hold for so long that I end up hanging up and trying to call back. So by quarter to eight I'm thinking that I am going to die if I do not eat soon. So I load up all of the kids and head to taco bell where they forget half of my food! Oh my god! I do not want to do this day EVER again!!!!!