So it's late Friday night and I am sitting here trying to think of anything but work. This last week and the week prior have been hell! I have had to work overtime which in my field is pretty much unheard of. I have been so tried and out of it that I actually went to the store the other night for groceries; got them went up to the check out lane and the nice cashier rang them all up gave me my total before I realized that I had left the house without any money! So I had to have the suspend my transaction so that I could run back home and get said money to pay for my groceries. The cashier was really nice about it though even though I felt like the biggest ass in history! He even had someone bag my groceries for me so that when I got back I could pay and go. That was really cool. Maybe I'll forget my money more often. LOL! Then on that same trip back to the store to pay for my crap I see this guy who was really cute and I gave him my best smile. He was there with two other guys though so I did not approach him. I did check out what they were buying though to see if they were roommates or something else if you know what I'm saying. Anyway I get done and take my crap out to my car where I see the guys that were just in the store one aisle over from where my car is. I watch them a little and notice that the one that I smiled at got into his own car. So I head over to the gas station that is right next to the grocery store and start to get gas and who pulls into the pump next to mine but Mr. Cutie himself. Still I can not bring myself to say anything to him. So I go inside to pay for the gas and guess who walks in right behind me and stands right next to me? Yep that's right Mr cutie! And what do you think I did? NOTHING, NADA, ZIP ZILTCH....... Which believe me if you know me is not like me at all. So the only conclusion that I can come to about all of this (and believe me when I say I have been mentally brow beating myself for days about this) is that I am tired of being the one to speak with my interest. I may be alone for the rest of my life for this but I have decided that I want to be asked out! I want to know that you thought that I was cute too! I want you to talk to me first! I know it's horrible but whatcha going to do?