As the time passes and we draw closer to the new year once again I find myself pondering a few different thoughts. First and foremost in my mind is where the hell has the year gone?? Or for that matter like the last 10 years? As you get older I have for sure realized that the go by faster and faster. I can still remember in grave detail giving birth to my oldest boy who is now 10. I tell you if you blink you miss like six months. Another prominent thought in my little overworked brain is what the have I done different this year then last? You know that old saying? This year is going to be different? Well I do not think that has ever happened to me. It seem that my life just spits out the same days over and over again for the past 6 years. I pick the wrong guys to date; I struggle to make ends meet and I am still depended on my parents to help me with my kids. Anytime I think that I might be getting a little ahead something else happens and I am right where I started again. How sad is that? Another thought is about my choice in men. Why is it that when you met someone and you get alone great and things are going really well and then BOOM you get knocked up and the guy pretends that you never existed to him. And don't even think about trying to get him to pay you child support! Oh no you had better hope and pray that you win the lottery because you will be raising these kids alone for the rest of your life! On the subject of child support I would like to say that if the fathers (yes fathers) would get off their lazy butts and actually pay the support I would only have to work part time. Yeah that's a pipe dream! And don't even get me started on the county that is supposed to go after these guys to get them to pay.. They are so over worked that they just do not care. Believe me people I know I live it first hand! One of the fathers owes me 26,000 in back child support and still I see next to nothing. Do you know what I could do with that money? I believe that you could guess pretty accurately what I could do with it.
So anyway Happy New Year all! I hope this years going to be better then last. At least it might for everyone but me!